Movies: Dorian Gray

In the office doing nothing, while waiting for calls we decided to watch Dorian Gray.

A naïve young man. A lovelorn artist. A corruptible Lord. A deal with the Devil. It all paints a dark picture of a Victorian London and how the rich and infamous party at their peril. Here, the telling of time and its consequence of experience for life's treasures' takes its toll on the body, mind and soul. The haunting and bleak tale of power, greed, vanity and inevitable self-destruction is ever present amongst the deceit, opium dens and sin.

Fresh-faced and innocent, Dorian Gray arrives in London to move into the house he has inherited. Almost immediately he falls under the influence of amoral and calculating Lord Henry Wotton, leading to a life of increasing debauchery and even violence. Through many years Gray stays as young-looking as ever, while a portrait painted when he arrived grows old, reflecting his increasing excesses. Eventually the picture, now secreted in his attic, becomes almost hideous to behold. When true love finally enters his life he realises he must guard his secret at all costs.

There She Goes

It was late night on the 22nd of January (this year) when she finally joined the Lord up above; my grandmother was 90 years old and happy when she'd decided to be with our Creator.

I love you lola!

Blessed

I was able to talk to my grandma earlier over the phone; she wasn't talking back though. I've told her again that if she needs to go now it'll be OK for me. We can take of ourselves already. GOD and my mother, maybe, is waiting for her.

Grandma has been with us ever since my parents got married. She'd been taking care of us for the rest of our lives.She, maybe, had done more than what other grandmothers could do; there are a lot of things she did that it would make a book.

As I was talking to her earlier I felt that she wants to talk to me. My sister, who was holding the phone, told me that grandma is trying to open her mouth to say somethings, she was even trying to move her fingers; I cried knowing that. My siblings and our relatives had even talked to her; they had given her their blessings; but grandma seems to be still fighting for her life. Maybe she doesn't want to leave us yet knowing that she had been telling me before that if she'll meet death she preferred to be buried in her native land, Pantikian (Balbalan). Was it too early to tell?

I love her so much...

As I'm making this post I'm holding my tears from flowing, I'm trying to compose myself and not to over react to what's happening in the province as of the moment. Even though how much I try to hide my sadness my heart can never do, it's hurting.

Today is the 6th-year death anniversary of my beloved mother, I've missed her so much. But that's not what is making me so sad right now. It's the situation where my family's at right now; especially my grandmother who is very much sick and dying.

My grandma, Carmen Lucob, is 90 years old now. She had been strong for the past 89 years of her life, not until for the past few months when her sickness begun to show itself, overcoming the strength of my lola; she couldn't hide it anymore though she's fighting for it. The major diagnosis that her doctors had informed us is that she is suffering from congestive heart failure. Her heart is having difficulty pumping blood to her system.

I was informed by my sister earlier that my grandma's been breathing slow already. She cannot talk. She can hardly mover her body. She can hardly see for her eyes had bulged. She's in vain.

I told them to pray. God that holds her life; if He wills for it, there's nothing we can do. I thought, whatever happens to her God will always be there. My mother, her own daughter, will also be there.

The Lord knows what's best for my grandma, what's best for us.

I love her so much that it makes me sad knowing how she is. I love her so much that as much as possible I don't want her to leave the world. I love her so much that I would definitely take responsibility of having the burden of her sickness, exchange places with her. I lover so much that I want her to be happy forever.

She loves us too, so much.